I just want to say that I said all the things I said because if tomorrow never comes for me, I don't want to leave in regret. But if I really left, the only regret would be me not being able to to be with her....

But I said I won't give up and I won't back down.

She said it was sweet but too "mushy", what I said. But I don't think she knew it was all from the heart. My broken heart.

What I'd give to be with her, embrace her, and spend each special moment with her? Anything, and everything. I have a lot left to give, if only she would receive.

But right now, I seriously feel like I'm dying. I think I need more beer, but once again, the beer in the house has run out.

If only I was with her this minute, if only I was talking to her, if only I could hold her... If only.