With every person calling my name from the back, I wished it was her...

Everything I do, I wished I was with her...

Now I realise that I've been such a washed up has been who has sunk down to depths I've never sunk before. I know. But I can't seem to pick myself up... It's been so long already... Never felt like that before. I got an assignment due very very soon and I haven't even touched it yet... I feel... numb.

What's happening to me... I was never like that... I guess she was right... I really changed... I think I'm losing it.

If there's a God, please hear me... But I only know what can save me. For now, it's on to something that will just alleviate the pain a little.