Sometimes, you haven't really given your everything unless you have decided that you'd give up everything you have. Everything that made you feel safe, loved, and wanted. I took a long time to decide on that, and yea, I'm ready to give up my everything. Everything I have here, in Singapore.
She said that it will be the biggest mistake I will ever make, but the biggest mistake I will ever make, to me, is if I never gave this my all. So for her and for us, I will be ready to give up everything I have here. Mom has told me that even if it doesn't work out, I always have my family back here for me. Though sometimes she irritates me much, I love my mom.
Back to her, I asked her to take time to reconsider this, because now, there's a chance of Forever, if she says yes. I plucked up the courage to tell her the things I told her today because I absolutely fell apart when I saw her on Friday. And then I knew, I can't live without her.
But not too much hope this time, lest I fail and I fall too hard and hurt myself again.
And this time, she knows. :)