Through my eyes

Again, she has made my day and left a smile that has to be surgically removed. But I know there'll be another that she'll leave me so cold that I need to put up an artificial smile just to get by. But hey, I'll just enjoy this moment while it's still fresh. And I think I'm getting used to this cycle. It's not good for me, I know, but getting used to it just alleviates the pain that little bit.

I guess she is just that special, and unique in her own special way. Maybe that's what I love about her, because that makes her, her.

But I'm still looking forward to the day when I can hold her in my arms and watch the stars and moon, because I know that's what she loves to do too. Going about in the serene nature and away from the hustle and bustle of the vicious rat racing city life.

Everytime I see a full moon, I am reminded of that night (way back) when we used to walk in the park near her house, chatting and looking at the various trees and other greens, and she would educate me about what each and every green does. I've never been a green person, but after that night I was turning green (not the incredible hulk!). Anyway, full moon because on that night, (you guessed it) it was a beautiful full moon. And on that night, we took our only picture together, just me and her. That's why the full moon is so special and precious to me, just as she is. And tonight, is a full moon.

But for now, I guess its back to dream land where I'll see her and the only place where I can hold her in my arms. I know that day will ultimately come, I know she will say those words one day. We were made for each other.

So i will not be a naysayer and I will not back down, I will not give up. LTL. Keep the faith, James. Keep your faith in her.

"Ei tot ei tot."