I find myself shaking my head in despair so much everything is in a blur.Before this I was so happy I should have known it was just an illusion, too good to be true.
I learnt to live with hope and patience,
But I also learnt to take happiness with naysayer-ism.
Thoughts of her will still fill my mind,
But not with happiness,
It's with doubt.
Not that I doubt her,
Never will I do so,
But doubt of my happiness,
She's been so cold.
Goodnight I said to her,
If she only knew,
The thoughts that were,
It wasn't at all, brand new.
When I will see her again I wonder,
What she's feeling now I ponder,
How would it be like with her gentle touch,
I hurt so bad because she means too much.
If she only knew,
What I would give,
She has been my fuel,
Without it I won't live.
Pardon me for my rant,
Short of breath I pant,
My air is running low,
But my tears for her, I won't show.
I might drown in sadness,
I might live with despair,
I might enjoy this cruel happiness,
But her feelings she just won't share.
I am just another nothing,
A piece of trash you'd throw,
She is my everything,
I'll just be alone with my woe.
Goodnight may be what I will say,
She'll see me smile, but on another day.